Welcome to my life. *Enter at your own risk*

Dear Guest,

Welcome. You're about to witness what it's like to be me. It's not a very cheerful thing, so like the author of "A Series of Unfortunate Events," I suggest you click the Camp Hlf Blood picture at the top which will bring you back to the homepage of this site and you will never here about how stressed I am.

Hello my name is Jessica. Some call me Jess, some Jessie, and some Jesseh. I have no life. Okay, maybe that's not true. My life consists of chb, reading, my grades, Facebook, and my family's property. Oh, I forgot to mention the company of my cat. Yeah, my mom doesn't let me walk around the block by myself. I HAVE to have an escort.

When I asked her if I could volunteer at the nursing home (three blocks away next to the school she went to for a year where she walked THE EXACT SAME DISTANCE). She said, "Is anyone gonna volunteer with you?" My reply was negative. No, I don't mean I said something mean to her, I mean I said, "No ..." So, she didn't let me go.

Did I mention my grandmother is 90 years old and I have no idea what the heck she's talking about some of the time? My mother ignores me. I have no siblings at home, so: I'm reduced to the company of: the cat. And she's lazy and sleeping right now, as usual.

Lately, I've been stressed. Real stressed. Homework, family, etc. etc. Oh and I feel ignored here at chb a lot of the time. Sometimes it feels like no one exists.

Now, I live about 15-20 minutes away from the school. My closest friends live ten minutes away DRIVING. And like I said, I can't walk around the block by myself. My best friend live in a city about three hours away so we usually just talk on Facebook when at all possible. There are no girls my age in my neighborhood. It's almost like an elderly home. The girl closest to my age is a junior. In fact I think all the girl that go to my church are juniors (except me). Well, there are the little kids. I do have a little bit of a life, when I get to see my surrogate father on Sundays for a couple hours and on Mondays for a couple hours IF I have no school.

So, you caught a glimpse of my life in the form of a letter addressed to yourself. I hope you enjoyed, but I seriously think you should've clicked the picture above. Thanks for reading. Live long and prosper and I hope your life isn't as bad as mine.

Love,
Jess

P.S. Sometimes, I feel as though I would be better off leaving camp half blood, I feel so ignored.

I feel really trusted that you'd open up to me like this. I'm not going to give you some non-geniune crap about how it will be fine, or something like I know how you feel, because everyone is unique.

My parents have grown to trust me more. If I shoot them a word, I can head out anywhere in a nearby radius of a couple kilometers. But I feel really lonely sometimes. My private school, which is making me do tons of work right now, is located in the downtown of the metropolitan. I live in the suburbs about 1 and a half hours of driving everyday. I take the subway every day, for 2 hours, round trip, occasionally with a bus trip that adds an extra hour. And my friends live in the opposite direction. Some do live near me, but their parents treat them like yours do, and I barely get to know them. I really wish I could meet them, and hang out near their houses, since no one in their right minds would follow me to my house for 2 hours of transit, and even more back. I only talk to them on Facebook. But no one really knows me well, except for one friend who seems to empathize with me more than others.

Sometimes, I feel like crying. Guys can break down too. But because I hope the next day will be better, I hold it in, so any happiness of the next day can heal me right up, just like a square of ambrosia :P. And my homework makes sure the next day starts at 5 am and ends at 2 am. I really hate some of my subjects, but I want a good university to take me in. But this may be the most cliched thing I ever say, but things do get better. And even if they seem not to, I'll be here. And there'll be others too.

Jess, IGNORED AT CHB? My first 2 weeks here, whenever you, Selene, Skye, or James got on, I would feel left out because I was new. You con't be so negative. Think about th e positive^^ ( I know I sound like a total hypocrite if you've read my rant) but, you need to know that there are people out there who have life worse than you do.^^ I hope that life gets better for you though. I really do. And if you need anyone to talk to, I'm all ears. ^^

Lately, I've been ignored. ^ ^

OH NOES I'M FAILING LITERATURE D: *dies*

I know how you feel. I have almost no life i do have some freedoms I can walk around the neighborhood. But I have had times where my only conecction to my freinds was about 5 minutes a day in elementary no like that anymore but I do feel Lonely. Alot And I break down alot but One thing I do is I cry it out. It actually does help it seems stupid but it helps. My advice to you.

I can't cry it out. It'll be back tomorrow. I tried crying out yesterday, but it's back.

Whoa. I feel sorry for you. I'm not really familiar with that kind of thing, because my best friend lives next door. Btw, my BEST best friend is named Jessica, so I like people named Jessica naturally.

I'm sorry about that. The thing with your mom you can only try to talk to her about how you feel about things. And for hanging out with friends get a skype, arrange a time after school to go over their house, and maybe your mom will let you one day. And i bet you could make friends with the junior on your street and at your church. Just talk to them like you would talk to somone your age, trust me they wont be rude unless their jerks.. And for this fourm it's normal to be not as noticed in new places you go, but you just have to put yourself in there.

I'm preetty much like you, really unorginized with school cant get out of the house much because my parents work all the time. And wherever i go im the youngest. Just go with the flow and things will get better.