How did I carry Y'all??? [private to sniggle and Tortuga]

Ben was about to explode. He bucked up a little bit, though, and pulled Torin even closer to himself. "I... Torin, I..." And he said it. "I love you." He tightened the hug held Torin in, not wanting to let go, afraid the older boy would push him away. "I really do."

"Love you too, bro." He was still tired, and let most of his wight shift onto Ben, pushing him down on the breath. Ba-dump, ba-dump, the boy's heart seemed to speed up. He smiled, his was doing the same thing. He repeated Ben's words. "Really do."

Ben continued to stutter. "N-no, I mean... I-I-I mean I..." Finally, he couldn't take it anymore. He pulled away from Torin, then before the older boy could react, pressed their lips together. They stayed that way for a few seconds, then Ben jumped away "OHGODSOHGODSOHGODS I'm so sorry you must hate me now sorry sorry sorry-"

Torin blinked in confusion. He felt, well, a little troubled. A little rejected, too. Ben had pulled away from him when he thought they were mutually enjoying it. And then Ben surprised him. He leaned in and kissed Torin, on the lips. A warm, love-filled kiss. Torin was so un-prepared that instinct had taken over. He jerked his head up and back and forgot he was sitting on a bed rather than standing. He fell backwards off the bed onto the ground, smacking his head and shoulder blades on the floor with a thud while the rest of his body curled over after it. He groaned at the sudden throb in his head and the pain that flared through the rest of him. Well, that solved his first problem. Ben hadn't rejected him, Ben had wanted more. And, was it weird of him to say that he was okay with that? He didn't feel the same kind of love that did with Lexi, but he still felt a love for Ben. Brotherly love, yes, but.... More than that, too. He didn't want them to separate, and he was a little hurt by Ben's apologizing for the kiss. He grimaced and rolled so that his body was sideways on the floor and his legs weren't in the air. "Ughh..." He mumbled, somewhat incoherently. Was this feeling one of passion or was he just confusioned? Torin couldn't really tell at the moment. He could barely tell which way was up.

Ben rushed over to his brother. "Ar-Are you ok, Torin? Big bro?" His face was creased with worry. He leaned in close. "B-big bro?"

Torin opened his eyes to see Ben's face hovering over his. "Why... are you apologizing?" His voice was tained with rejection. He shook his head slightly and squeezed his eyes shut again, before exhaling and letting it relax. Then, without thinking, he throw his arms out at Ben, wrapping them around his neck and dragging him in closer until he could touch his face with his a slight lift of his aching head. He moved in, his nose touching Ben's, and then he moved closer, letting their lips touch. Ben was warm, and Torin only hoped that he was feeling what Torin was, even if Torin didn't quite know what that feeling was.

Ben eye's widened, and he was shaking as Torin kissed him back. He was scared and happy and confused all at the same time and he just didn't care. His eyes pressed shut and he pulled Torin even closer to him. He was crying now, tears streaming from the corners of his eyes. Still he seized control, pressing his tongue past Torin's lips, kissing with fervor, kissing with passion. This boy was not just his brother. He was so much more. Ben would give his life for Torin, almost had already, and now he knew his brother felt the same.

Torin tried to smile but it was hard with Ben pressing his lips against Torin's, and he much preferred Ben's passion over his joy, so he didn't smile and went along for the ride. His tongue circled Ben's, brushing the surface of it, slowly drawing geometrical shapes. He was new to this, honestly, and didn't really know what exactly to do, so he just did what came naturally. His hands slid under Ben's shirt and down his back, feeling Ben's heated skin and tracing the curve of his spine. His face was red, and his stomach was in knots, but he felt weightless. Like anything was possible. Torin didn't want it to end...He enjoyed it far too much. Probably far more than a brother should, but he couldn't help himself.

Ben traced the lines of Torin's shoulderblades through his shirt as they kissed. He pulled back for a moment to catch his breath. "This is supposed to be so wrong but i just don't care. I love you so much, brothers doesn't even begin to describe it." He was high with love but everything he said was true.

Torin nodded, breathing when Ben pulled away. His torso began to hurt again, but he ignored it. He looked into Ben's eyes, his own eyes expressing relaxation and enjoyment. He lowered his head to the floor again, his neck beginning to hurt, and smiled at the coldness the concrete brought. He let his arms drop from Ben and laid them on the floor, sighing at the cold tingle. "Brothers..." He began, lingering on the word, "No. Not brothers. I think now, it's safe to say we're more than that..."

Ben lay down next to Torin. "No kidding. I love you so much. I've said it already, but it's true, it just is." He laced his fingers with Torin's. "I've never been this happy, not ever before." He pulled Torin into a hug, but didn't try to kiss him again, just stayed there, blissful.

((OTL I'm cracking up as I'm writing this XD))

Torin froze up and blinked. He looked at Lexi, his face draining of color. "I, uhm, fell on the floor..." And then made out rather passionately with my younger brother. He plastered a fake, sheepish smile onto his face. "Ben was trying to help me up, but... I guess I'm heavier than I look..." Did Torin just lie? This was a new low for him. Torin never lied. He looked up at Lexi hesitantly, anxiously, guilt clearly stamped across his face. His heart raced, he didn't want to hurt Lexi. He would tell her, just... Just not like this. She still meant a lot to him. Torin didn't want her to get upset, but deep down he knew it was kind of inevitable. His only hope was that she wouldn't be too angry when she found out.

Torin dropped his eyes and head, staring at the ground with a frown. He exhaled shakily. "Lexi, I... I'm not sure... you and I..." He stared at her feet, unable to look her in the eye. "I just..don't think... we... should be...well... together anymore... I-I still love you, I do, I just... I don't know.... things have kind of...change." The sentence was long and awkward, he didn't mean for it to be that way, but he couldn't help it. He didn't want to give Lexi the wrong idea by lying to her. He just prayed she wouldn't ask for details.

Ben was... happy, he supposed. Not to mention a little shocked at what had just happened. He had completely forgotten Lexi was there in those moments in Torin's arms. He felt a tinge of guilt, of pity for the girl, but this was quickly forgotten as he pressed his lips to Torin's again. "Hey. Are you all right?" he asked, noticing the guilt apparent on his brother's face.

Torin felt the warmth and life in Ben's lip, but couldn't take it at the moment. With a small shake of his head he drew back. "Not...right now." He mumbled, guilt-ridden. Lexi had just stormed out in tears, and he was the one responsible for it. He felt terrible, and his heart ached. Ben, Lexi...Both were in love with him. And he loved both of them. The problem was, he realized that he loved Lexi, but realized that he was in love with Ben. And Lexi, well, she didn't seem to take well to it. He sighed and rubbed the back of his neck, looking at Ben, pleading for an answer with his eyes. "What do I do..." He muttered.

Ben rubbed his brother's back with one hand, making slow circles on his shoulder blades. "She'll get better. She's the daughter of the Love Goddess, after all. Just give her some time. Break ups always hurt." He held Torin close. "Right now though, don't trouble yourself with feeling guilty. I'll help you, in whatever way I can." He smiled. It was an innocent one, Ben made sure of that.

Torin nodded, exhaling shakily. He looked up at his brother's warm eyes and gentle smile. The corner of his lip inched up in a forced smile as tears began to involuntarily pool in his eyes. Ben was saving his heart again, but this time emotionally. Torin rested his head gently in Ben's strong neck. He felt so emotionally distraught and so vulnerable at the moment. "Where would I be without you?" He murmured just loud enough for Ben to hear.

Ben laughed grimly. "Dead. But you aren't, and that's all that matters to me. " He wiped his brother's eyes. "Hey now! No crying. I'm here for you."Leaning down, he kissed him gently on the top of the head. "I can't wait 'til we can get out of here. Not that I don't love the Infirmary, I just like the sunlight and fresh air. And the Cabin is nice for somethings. Bigger windows, your snack pile.... privacy..." He said the last thing teasingly, and wiggled his eyebrows.

Torin blushed intensely. He could've out-shined a tomato and a firetruck in a contest of what was more red. He forced a small laugh that came out more like a squeak. Ben was kidding, right? Oh gods he hoped Ben was kidding. Well, most of him hoped that, anyway. A small part of him hoped that Ben wasn't.

He squeezed his eyes shut when Ben brought his fingers near to brush the tears away, unsure of what he was supposed to do. Torin was muscular and known for helping people. Being so vulnerable terrified him. He drew himself up from the floor slowly, extending his hand to help Ben up. "Talk to Apollo kids, I guess..." He was so embarrassed. His brother and...his boyfriend? Well, the term wasn't official so for now his brother was having to wipe the tears from his eyes. The only other person who ever did that was his mom, and that was a long time ago. He felt like a child again. A weak little boy who people would laugh at for bawling his eyes out. He muttered a weak apology to Ben before sniffling and wiping his red eyes dry.

"And what are you apologizing for? You're so cute when you cry." He laughed, and took Torin's hand in a firm grip. He stood, pulling Torin close as he did so, kissing him on the lips. He pulled back, smiling. "You know what I think would make you feel better? Treating some patients. Also bribing the Apollo kids to let us out earlier." He laughed. "And no more crying. If you keep that up, I'll have to kiss you until you stop." He winked.

OOC: Roar...

Torin shrugged half-heartedly. Treating others? He could barely take care of himself right now. Some fresh air might be nice, though. He let Ben pull him in and kiss him, returning the kiss back and touching foreheads with him. He tried to clear his head and calm himself. "I'm...really glad you're here." A warm tear rolled down his cheek, and he laughed. Would Ben really kiss him until he stopped crying? If that's the case, Torin never wanted to stop.