Some of you have probably noticed I have been inactive for a while, and possibly have in turn been wondering where I have been, and why I haven't been online. Well, I'll tell you why.
A few weeks ago, I started school. Again. About 2 or 3 weeks before that, I recieved my NCEA results, which are basically my exam results telling me whether or I passed. I hadn't. I broke down a little, and got a little anti-social for about a week or two afterwards, and then suddenly realized my foolish moping wasn't helpful. So I was re-enrolled into highschool and yeah.
Oh, and why this was a big deal and why I broke down?
Last year, in late May and throughout the entire duration of June, I had glandular fever which pretty much messed up my emotions and I didn't actually know I had it at the time until my guidance counsellor requested I get a blood test to check I didn't have an illness affecting my mind. Which I did which kind of helped knowing. It kinda was the main reason I failed as it messed up everything and I felt like I was stuck in limbo, just lost and terrified of future stuff.
So anyway, the other main reason why failing was such a big deal. I am turning 19 this year, and I am basically one of the oldest students at my school. Last year was supposed to be my last year. I was supposed to leave with my level 3, get a job for a year, and decide what I wanted to do with my life. Now, I am stuck in school with people I barely know and as terrifying, disappointing, and shaming as it is, it's not actually that bad. I get to take subjects I have never tried before, I am making new friends, I am learning, and although I am trying to get all the credits I need, I am enjoying myself.
So, basically, that is what has been taking up my time.
That, and the ridiculous amount of books I have gotten from the library in the past two weeks.
So, sorry, I did not mean to vanish and stuff. And for the record, HI GUYS I MISSED YOU ALL.