DEPRESSION SUCKS

especially if your mom is suffering it not you

Look, I live with my mom most of the time, I spend about 1-3 days with my dad a week. My dad openly expresses his hatred toward my mom to us, and my mom is extremely passive aggressive to my dad around us. When my dad drops us off at my moms place they leave screaming. And by screaming, I mean my mom is screaming bloody murder at the top of her lungs.

At my dads house, well, let's just say he's sexist. He believes woman belong in the kitchen, cleaning, cooking, chores, etc. He thinks woman aren't as strong as men, therefore making my dad believe that he is higher in authority not only because he is my 'father', but because he is a man. He's constantly making sexist jokes, around his ONLY two DAUGHTERS. The only things he talks about when me and my sister are at his house, is his girlfriend (who i want to rip off her limbs and cover her body in maggots then let it rot in the red sea), and all the chores we need to do.

i hate it

Now that school has started, things have begun to be hectic. I already have 3 missing assignments in math, two in social studies, and 2 in french. I wake up at 5:30 every morning for volleyball at 6:30. I have no free time in my life, except for the spots where I end up on my laptop instead of the precious hours I'm supposed to be sleeping. My parents are so pissed at each other to no end. I hate it, I can't do my homework because of them. I just don't know what to do with my life. I'm so behind on my homework it's not even funny. And look, it's only the second week into school.
I'll flunk seventh grade and be that 14 year old 7th grader everybody knows.
Just, urgh. I'm just pissed at my family. My dad thinks he can buy me everything I want, go out to dinner every single night, and spend all the money he wants. Even though yet he's still paying for two houses and an appartment, and his job is losing money. His pay is so low it's terrible. My mom can't pay anything, because she works at a school as a secretary, and she has no edjucation. She quit school after high school.
She's afraid we're all going to end up on the streets in a womans shelter.
I have no time for homework at all.
I'm just so tempted to go to the counceler and tell her that I can't do my homework because my parents just divorced and hate each other and I can't concentrate at all.

help me i'm so lost i hate it.

maybe going to see a counsellor would help you, i know it helped me a lot when i was in high school.

I agree with Hawk, just ask somebody who you think can help you, like the school counselor or the principal or anybody who you think will understand your situation, and don't be hesitant, it might get worse for you if you don't tell anyone.

I convince myself that I don't need help.