Betrayal, Depression, and More...

Dear Camp Half Blood,

I feel betrayed. Depressed. Everything. Today I found out that my mom is talking about me behind my back. Betrayal. She's judging me and it's a sin to judge. Even to judge yourself. I'm not going to give you a sermon or a lecture about this whole thing. But, what I'm trying to say, is my mom is the only person I have. My dad lives across the country. I have two half -sisters, but they're both in their late twenties and they also live across the country. And sometimes I have no idea what my grandmother is even talking about.

No one to talk to. No one that cares. Depression. I have no big sister to talk to when times are rough. I feel like my mother neglects me. When she gets home from work? Make dinner. Eat dinner. Read. And more reading after that. It's nothing more than reading for her. No mother daughter time. Oh and did I mention that my surrogate father is super busy and I usually only get to see him on Sundays, unless I have no school on a Monday. I get to see him on no-school Mondays. but that's it.

Lately, I've been feeling like I don't belong on this site. That I'm unimportant. That's why I haven't been on regularly lately. But what would I do, where would I go? Where would I get my joy? These are all questions I cannot answer. So, yeah, I guess that's it. At least for this rant.

With love,
Jessica

Ok jess your a wonderful person you belong on the site and so what i your mom doesn't spend time with you i never really get to spend time with mom but i still love her even if she's a little hard on me so if you feel betrayed again pm me and we can talk.

Because I have no one to spend time with. I go to private school and my closest friends are a TEN MINUTE DRIVE away. Oh and my mother doesn't even want me walking the three blocks to get to a nursing home so I can volunteer. -.-

ok thats a little harsh but you can get over i have to get over a whole lot during the day so if I can you can just remember that.

Dear, I'm so sorry <3

I don't want to tell you to be strong and such since I understand that it just doesn't work. Remember for every person who you feel dislikes you, there are two people who would die if you were gone. It may seem hard to believe but it's true. You don't have to believe it. Just remember that you're as important as every person in this world <3

Try do something for yourself. Whatever you like. Even though it may be momentary happiness, you'll be happy. Take pictures. Lots of them.

Love, Summer.