PLEASE DON'T READ THIS.

First off, I hate my life ATM.

My best friend claimed I was turning into natalie, just because i wear double necklaces and fix my hair. She claims I "ditch" her just to go to the bathroom and that I can't hold in a freaking sentence. it's not like i can control it. i have freaking ADD. toda was the worst day ever of my whole entire life.

period.

i was marked tardy for shop class because i had to use the bathroom really badly and didn't ask him if i could go.
the teacher gave me a zero on an assignment because i only had *4* pages, which means it didn't print.
then she asked if everything was okay at my house because it was so late.
and i got called down to the councelers room because they thought i was being sexually harassed.
and turns out i am being harassed.
and i probably got a c- in writing, my best subject because it didn't freaking print.
and i'm failing most of my classes.
and i was also late for class BECAUSE of the counceling thingy.
and my report won't even freaking print at home, considering the fact that it's 14 PAGES LONG instead of 4 PAGES.
and the library is closed all week because of tcaps (transitional colorado assesment program)
so i can't print it out.
and i can't raise my grade up
and my 'friend' natalie is also harassing me
dragging me to places where i don't want to go
hitting me on the back hard then laughing
slapping me on the FACE and laughing because i said it hurt

and the only thing i can do to avoid suspicion is become somebody i'm not.
somebody else perhaps that even I would like more
and a person who is always happy go lucky and stuff.
and trust me, you don't want to see the real me
i only put on a happy face all the time because i was bullied as a kid.
i thought people would not bully me anymore if i was nice.
i got called
fat
ugly
worthless
and told multiple times that i should go die in a hole.
i haven't seen my friends in over a year
and my friends scrutinize me simply because i wear makeup
they hate me for the person who i want to be
they hate not me
they hate the person who i am not
the real me is horribly depressed
sad and easily brought to tears.
scared of mostly everything
whiny and annoying
and most of all
worthless.

goodbye for now-
kendall august hoffman-zellers