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| I'm not sure what to call this | |
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Do you want to learn who I really am? | I am willing to test myself | | 96% | [ 25 ] | I do not want to face this challenge | | 4% | [ 1 ] |
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Katie Firebird Experienced Poster
Posts : 2533 Join date : 2010-12-21 Age : 29 Location : In YOUR room eating YOUR cake.
| Subject: I'm not sure what to call this Tue Jan 17, 2012 1:18 am | |
| Many of you don't know me, i'm sure you may have seen me on at one time or another, or if this is our first meeting of words, Hello to you.
To continue,
For about the past year I have been struggling with a very important issue pertaining to my life here at Camp Half Blood. I think I started having these feelings about the time Zan came out and said, "I'm not what you think I am."
That started me upon my reflection. Since there is no cut away pysilophical** message to this, here it is.
I am not what you think I am.
Now you may think you have an idea of what I mean, but I highly doubt it, i'm talking on the level where my entire identity known to you will be altered by revealing to you this secret. As my life carries on, I wonder what would be different between all of this, as I used to be what I was, but now I am different. I thought, if I can do what I am doing at this very moment, then i'm very good at doing what I shouldn't be doing.
I recently made a post about acceptance. And with that, you can't be sure of you're own test of character until you've faced a challenge you need to face.
So before I start making even less sense here's what i'm going to do. I have exams this week, so answer the pole above. When I return Friday, or sooner depending on the frequency of my PM box, anyways, come Friday I am going to look at the result. Based on the result, is the basis of wether you learn one of the most earth shattering truths about me. Please, leave a response with what you think.
So, are you willing to test yourself to the ultimate truth of someone you thought you knew?
"Can that really happen?" asked Crazy Tom "Of course it can.. it just did." responded Bean. Silence overtook the group, one by one as it all dawned on them, "You mean it's over?" Petra asked, "Every last one of them is dead?"
~Me
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| | | Katie Firebird Experienced Poster
Posts : 2533 Join date : 2010-12-21 Age : 29 Location : In YOUR room eating YOUR cake.
| Subject: Re: I'm not sure what to call this Fri Jan 20, 2012 3:22 pm | |
| So here it is, i've been thinking about this for most of the week and arrived at a conclusion. You're going to have one of two reactions, the closer you knew me, the more effect this will have on you. If you just want the same old me I advise not reading the rest of this.. - Spoiler:
So, as I said i've been thinking about this most of the week. I originally wanted to do this with a recording, but couldn't get any software to work well enough to use. So i'm going to use a text version instead.
Here's the truth, the character of Katie Firebird was based on a friend of mine whom has since moved. I myself was based off of Jake Firebird. So what does that mean? That means that the Katie Firebird whom you think you know was run by two people, not just 1. So she would be the brains behind the characters while I was very good at acting, so much so I became too immersed and thats how I started out to be THE Katie Firebird.
So then you may think, "Who am I?" So I will answer you like this. You know who I am, my personality, my traits are all alike. Here's the only differences, i'm 40% Australian, 30% American & Scottish. I am also a 17 year old male who lives in New Hampshire. Katie on the other hand IS Australian IS 17 years old, and moved to a more northern section of the state. And to wrap it up, Katie wasn't in a car crash, I was. I have 3rd-4th degree burns on my arms and legs, right side of my face, and top of my head. Both our parents are rather abusive, her's more so than mine. So it's partially true, I am contactable, people who have our phone number it's really my phone, it's my e-mail registered, and it's I who's allowed to be on social networking sites.
I'm going to give you some time to digest this information, it's probably hurting you, shocking you, or really making you angry..
I'm sorry for not telling you this when I first started becoming friends with you, but now you know, and you can feel free to talk to me in anyway about it.. ask me questions or whatever.
Moving forward, i'll try and clear up some confusion as to who was who, when.
I, am a near professional gamer, I like, fantasy RP, epic quests, dragons and adventure. I'm not so much a daredevil but a planner.
Katie, is rather promiscuos, daredevilish, and likes to test the limits of nearly everything. She is much more driven towards romance and social interaction/statuses.
I doubt i'll be held in the same regard ever again, and i'm sorry for that. I'm sorry for the pain i've caused you and am most likely causing you now.
I'm still the same person though, but now you know what truly lies on the other side of the screen.
Now onto the reason why I wasn't Jake Firebird more often. When I look back it really comes down to this, when we first began, about a month or so in I had reconstructive surgery. During that time Katie still came on as my "Sister" and had oodles going on. So when I finally returned I felt out of the loop, jake Firebird was just a passing name, while Katie was much higher in social status, we came up with the idea to account share, which lasted pretty long up until the huge fight that broke out.
Most of us know what happened here, but let me break it down to you on our end. The original topic of argument came about when someone, not saying names, pointed out that the characters she created and I posted, were too showy for here. So while I attempted to sort things out here (and failed miserably with it) I was also quarreling with Katie for designing characters like that.
Since then we've had a falling out and rarely talk much anymore. She still visits Jazz as do I, albeit it's test week in New Hampshire, so I can't imagine she would be going on.
I'm truly sorry for all the heartburn we've caused you. If I could go back in time I would try and fix it.. but I can't. Maybe it was for the best though, I met a ton of cool people, Kdawg, Selene, Gaz, Zan, Nico, so many names I can't list them all. I truly hope we're still friends even after this direct infringement of your trust.
Respectively, ~Snolanda
P.S. Since most of you probably hate me for lieing to you all for so long i'm most likely not going to show up unless asked, or if a sudden urge to visit/return presses me.
..I'm sorry it was like this... | |
| | | Angel The Puppet Master
Posts : 4752 Join date : 2010-07-10 Age : 30 Location : in zans belly huhuh
| Subject: Re: I'm not sure what to call this Fri Jan 20, 2012 11:29 pm | |
| I'm still going to be calling you Katie, just out of habit.
Anyway,
I think it's amazing that you told us all the truth. That's hard to do after so long. And just because a few things about you are different doesn't mean that you're not the same. Your personality, the things that made all of the friends you have on here are the same. It's hard to tell the truth and scary too. But know that I'm sure people won't hate you for this. I know we've had our differences in the past, but I personally see those all as just that, the past. I was rude to you, and I'm still very sorry about that. However, whether or not we are considered friends, I think this is amazing what you've admitted to us here. And I admire you for being able to do it.
No one hates you because of this, I hope that you'll believe that.
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| | | Katie Firebird Experienced Poster
Posts : 2533 Join date : 2010-12-21 Age : 29 Location : In YOUR room eating YOUR cake.
| Subject: Re: I'm not sure what to call this Fri Jan 20, 2012 11:32 pm | |
| I don't think people will hugely hate me *anymore*, maybe a sprig of resentment here or there, some extreme shock is possible as well. | |
| | | tethys Experienced Poster
Posts : 4230 Join date : 2010-05-13 Age : 26
| Subject: Re: I'm not sure what to call this Sat Jan 21, 2012 1:41 am | |
| Ohmy, Katie's a guy. Although I'm now in a state of shock, you're still you. All this time you've been fooling us into thinking your female... For 2 years! That's like 1/7 of my whole life. I've known you all this time and I wouldn't have guessed in a million years. xD For some reason, I can't stop laughing! All this time...
But really, you're still be one of my best friends on CHB. <3 Your such a great person, I don't think anyone could hate you if you told 'em you were a murderer. It must take a lot of guts to admit your male after 2 years, and I have to admire you for that. c: | |
| | | Gazimu Mr. Content Cucumber
Posts : 1672 Join date : 2010-02-09 Age : 28 Location : Somewhere, waiting.
| Subject: Re: I'm not sure what to call this Sat Jan 21, 2012 2:11 am | |
| Technically, Katie(Habit) wasn't completely male.
But hey, now there's no worries about offending my best forum friend anymore if a joke involving kitchens slips out :P | |
| | | Katie Firebird Experienced Poster
Posts : 2533 Join date : 2010-12-21 Age : 29 Location : In YOUR room eating YOUR cake.
| Subject: Re: I'm not sure what to call this Sat Jan 21, 2012 11:47 am | |
| It was a half and half sort of deal, I still feel connected to lot's of people, but now it's like they're going to second guess everything I do. However after some of these responses I maay start second guessing myself. | |
| | | Gazimu Mr. Content Cucumber
Posts : 1672 Join date : 2010-02-09 Age : 28 Location : Somewhere, waiting.
| Subject: Re: I'm not sure what to call this Sat Jan 21, 2012 4:29 pm | |
| Theres a disease for that.
Its called a Multiple Personality Disorder, all Roleplayer's get it at some point in their life from playing so many characters :P | |
| | | Zan Mega Asshole Duo
Posts : 10035 Join date : 2010-05-04 Age : 27 Location : butthole PA
| Subject: Re: I'm not sure what to call this Sun Feb 19, 2012 7:48 pm | |
| Okay. So I know I'm admin and I'm not supposed to say these things but my first thought was, "Holy sh*t."
I totally respect you for basing a character off of your friend. Um, heck freaking yes. :p I still love you. I don't care if you're a guy, girl, or a Lady Gaga. I just have one question.. was it hard to pretend to be a girl? xD Stupid question. I'm still call you Katie, though. xD I do like the privacy of the internet.
I must go do the dishes. Crap.
The whole time I was reading your confession, I was smiling. Because you had mentioned me and I'm so arrogant I was all, "I inspired him to do this." Seriously, I'm terribly arrogant. | |
| | | Katie Firebird Experienced Poster
Posts : 2533 Join date : 2010-12-21 Age : 29 Location : In YOUR room eating YOUR cake.
| Subject: Re: I'm not sure what to call this Mon Feb 20, 2012 1:18 am | |
| Was it hard? No not really, after the first few months of worrying about being called out it became my way of life, as creepy as that sounds. }:3
With my case of teenage depression came my drifting awayness of myself to the internet, I never really came back after I went to camp, so you really saw less of myself and more of Katie then. It's so hard to determine us, IMO, unless you watch how we type out plot idea's. | |
| | | Nico Chatbox Ruler
Posts : 5539 Join date : 2010-12-04 Age : 25 Location : your mom's house
| Subject: Re: I'm not sure what to call this Mon Feb 20, 2012 1:40 am | |
| I feel weird. My reaction was so strange to this.
*Reading article-type-uplifting-truth.* HOLY CRAP I HAVE ONE MORE FRIEND THAN I THOUGHT I DID.
xD I'm glad you told us. I really do miss your activity. ): YOU CAN NOT GO AWAY. In fact, I hope you and Katie come on and make loads of characters and frolic around in the CHB fields forever. And ever.
And I'll probably never adjust, but, you know, hopefully someday I'll get used to the fact that Katie is a guy. xD | |
| | | Katie Firebird Experienced Poster
Posts : 2533 Join date : 2010-12-21 Age : 29 Location : In YOUR room eating YOUR cake.
| Subject: Re: I'm not sure what to call this Mon Feb 20, 2012 11:45 am | |
| Will I ever truly comeback? I doubt it. I spent so much time climbing the ranks the first time I don't know if I have the energy to do it the second, and that's even assuming you all forgive me for my incredible arrogance and start me back at Ground 0. Which in itself is a challenge.
Rather, I've more or less shifted my interests. I'm starting the Hunger Games back up with Gazimu, if that flops then maybe I'll change my interests again. Currently I'm stuck between THG, Minecraft, and my desire to get stellar grades so I can get a new laptop for college.
If I do ever truly get my obsession back for PJ&O, I might come back here, I may look for a smaller community, as some of you know my roots lead back to a very small community from the Z8 InvisionFree boards. I mean that in total was probably about 10-15 people.
So will I ever truly come back? Who's to say. I certainly would have a new character frontrunner. It's time Katie Firebird has retired anyways. I can't say what the real Katie will do anyways, I have very limited ways of contacting her. Maybe she'll pop up here or there, maybe not.
I go wherever the winding roads lead me. ~Sno | |
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