*drumroll* Rantrantrantrant

Okay so hi hi hi. This is my second rant and blah blah blah. So let's get started:

I guess I would say all of this started in Kindergarden and continues today. I'm in 8th grade right now. I have been bullied for eight years staright, every year just getting worse. I lost two best friends. Two. The first one moved away and the second one ignores me. My second best friend ignored me after I told him I cut myself. He said he would never talk to me again as long as I lived. I told him some colorful words. I tried to make better friends at my school, but they ignored me. I can tell they don't want me as my friend by their actions. At this point, I realized that no matter how close I got to someone, they will eventually leave me even though I gave them everything. I lost in my school cunciul elcetion as President. A guy came up to me and asked, "How does it feel to be a loser?" I had to walk before before I punched him in the face. I have no friends at school. Almost everyone talks about me. I hve been called every name you could possible think of. I have been called ugly, stupid, talentless, and a lot of other bad words. After being called ugly for such a long time, I began to believe an stayed indoors for a long time. Whenever I went outside, I felt like everyone was staring at me, thinking, "Wow, that girl is really ugly." Also, since I'm skinny, I'm a size 1/2 in jeans. I used to be 0, but i really don't care about my weight. I joked with this one girl, saying how I gained sooo much weight. She gave me the blankest stare ever and said, "I'm a 00."

Alos, I was trying to talk to this really nice girl who was giving some guy his notebook. I said something and he said, "Shut the f*** up you little ho*r." I was shocked and just stood there. My grades are okay. Since I'm in advanced math, I have to take the regents andd score a 90% to move up to the next math level when I go to high school. A 90%. And, I have to take the high school's placement test and score a 90% on that.

I feel so alno nowadays. I feel like I can't do anything. I stopped cutting, but I so badly want to cut again. I have tried to kill myself 4 times, wating for someone to tell me they care or to stop what I'm doing. I'm afraid to trust someone, knowing that they will go away.

Aw Greekers! I'm so sorry there's mean people in the world! I really am. You're an amazing person, those people just are to stuck up to see that!

Greekers....Ive been through bullying and its really tough to get through. My best advice to you is to keep your head up, keep up the good grades. Just keep with the friends you currently have and ignore the other people, because their something else... Anyways i think your a great person and what your going through wont last as long as you think. You know who you are and dont ever loose sight of that!