what doesn't kill you makes you stronger [ a n g e l ]

Last edited by Chromium on Sat Oct 13, 2012 10:24 pm; edited 2 times in total

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Sunlight streamed in through his window and into Will's eyes as he cringed away from it, attempting to bat it away. He lowered his hands away from his face, surrendering to the bright light and rolling back over onto his stomach where he lay idle. Will hadn't been able to get out of bed for several days on end now. He felt like his world was crashing down around him, his thoughts always swirling around in his head like... well, a whirlpool. Will pressed the side of his face against his pillow and sighed softly. He'd already tried to kill himself twice now. But, each time, he'd lost his focus and couldn't do it. He just couldn't do it. And for the rest of the days after that, Will beat himself up about it, drawing cuts into his skin on his stomach and ankles. Ankles, mostly. On your ankles, it was less noticeable. Sometimes Will just wanted to fade away into the shadows and just be gone.

Honestly, he could think of about a thousand other ways to let all his frustrations go, but he was too sick to do them. Not physically sick, but mentally. Though, he did kind of want to go for a run. A run. The thought stuck in his mind while he kept his eyes closed, breathing in the soft, clean scent of his sheets. He hadn't gone for a run since before he started drugs. Well, now he was somewhat clean except the alcohol and such, but, he loved running. He used to be able to go for miles and miles at a time. Will would've loved to go to college and just run cross country for the rest of his life. Overcome with a sudden energy, Will pulled himself into a sitting posistion, rubbing his eyes slightly. From across the room, he could see his electric yellow running shoes just sitting on top of his dresser, practically calling his name. "I can do this," he whispered to himself, his voice sounding strange to his ears after not hearing it for three days straight. Will pulled himself from his bed, letting his feet dangle over the cool floor. His feet touched the ground as he slid out of bed, standing on two wobbly legs.

Will stumbled over to his dresser and stopped to glance in Adelaide's full length mirror. Will's body was gaunt and skinny, as if he'd lost a ton of weight. Mostly body muscle. He could see that his biceps were significantly smaller and his arms in general were just almost scrawny looking. Will had somehow lost his passion for looking good. "Gods..." Will reached into his dresser and pulled out a shirt and a pair of shorts and his iPod. He could do this. He could do this. The demigod slid into his clothes and reached for his shoes, touching the golden laces carefully. Will set the Nikes on the floor slowly and slipped his feet inside, feeling the soft material cushion his foot. Will did a little test hop. Gods, he missed the feel of this. He slipped the Beats over his ears and pressed play on the first song that came onto his list which ironically happened to be Lose Yourself by Eminem. And for the next hour and a half, Will jogged through the forest, steering clear of all paths and just running. A few times he tripped over roots and bushes, but that didn't stop him. Will kept running.

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Will staggered back into his cabin, dripping sweat, his lungs raw and burning. He placed his hands on his knees and smiled victoriously at the ground. Morgan would've been so proud of him. And just at the thought of Morgan, Will's smile was gone to be replaced with a solemn look. Will straightened and peeled off his shirt, only to then notice a female sitting on his bed. At first he didn't recognize her, but realization soon passed over his face as he saw who she was. "Holy s-"

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"I wonder what this is..."

Carly Maria Simmins
Daughter of Thaumas

Carly awoke with a start and rubbed her head. "Gods...where am I.." she mumbled. Carly could feel sunlight warming her face. For some reason, she felt as though she hadn't felt sunlight in a long time.
"She's up!" someone yelled. Carly squinted into the sunlight to see a figure standing over her. It was a girl she didn't know.
"Who're you?" she asked, rubbing her eyes.
"That doesn't matter. The question is, do you know who you are and do you know where you are?" the girl asked.
What an odd question... Carly frowned, but of course she knew the answer. "My name is Carly and..." she paused and looked around. She recognized the place immediately. "I'm at Camp Half-Blood."
She could see the girl letting out a sigh of relief. But why? What was so relieving that she knew who and where she was?
The girl then explained exactly what happened to her. A year had passed since she'd last been at Camp Half-Blood, apparently. Carly was captured during the previous battle and held hostage, but everyone assumed she was dead. She was kept in a sedated state, unaware of where or who she was for the past year of her life. She was taken and used as bait for other campers, along with a few other demigods. It was then that the group of five demigods, the girl being one of them, came to their rescue.
Carly took in this information, and one thing came to her mind. She had to find Will.
Carly, without waiting for a response from the girl, pushed herself up and ran to the Zeus cabin. She burst through the doors, receiving a few confused looks from campers. Some of the looks she got were horrified ones. She recognized some of the Zeus children, and they believed her to be dead.
Carly immediately found Will's bed. She recognized his blanket and it even smelled like him. Carly took one of his shirts and breathed in, allowing Will's scent to flow through her nostrils. Everything came flooding back to her and she gave a sigh of relief.
The daughter of Thaumas plopped down on Will's bed and decided to wait for him to arrive.
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Carly looked up as Will walked towards his bed. A smile passed over her face and her eyes lit up. She could feel her heart beating against her chest. He looked exactly the same. Her Will. He didn't seem to recognize her at first, but then he seemed too surprised..
"Oh right, everyone thought I was dead.." she muttered. Carly rose to her feet and took a step towards Will. "Okay I'm gonna explain fast because it's really confusing and if I slow down I'm gonna get lost... I was taken as a prisoner in the battle that everyone thought I died in. I was held as a captive as bait for more demigods to try and save me. For you, Will. They wanted you. I was there with other demigods, but I was sedated. I had no idea where I was for a year... Actually a little under a year, but a while. I was rescued a few weeks ago and brought back here. You were the first person I thought of. I...I had to let you know. I'm alive, Will." Carly took another step towards Will and smiled. "I'm here.."

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will

Will's mouth opened and closed a few times, as he took in the given information and began to process it slowly. "Sorry, give me a second to think," Will's expression was confused as he waved her off with a hand. "I've been asleep for, like, three days; it'll take me a moment to think this through." And indeed it did. Will stood there for a moment, his chest still moving up and down from his run, just thinking about what Carly had just said. But, when she'd been taken hostage, Will was told that Carly had been killed by a bus. Either that grapevine was seriously messed up, or he'd been lied to by his own mother. Fabulous. "They told me you were hit by a bus." Will's teeth gritted together slightly, angry with the fact that he'd been lied to for over a year. He shook away his anger and tried to focus on the fact that Carly was here and alive. "But, I mean, I'm glad that you're alive. I really did miss you." Will wasn't going to lie to himself. The entire time he was with Morgan, he had still been in love with Carly. Although, seeing her in person now was quite overwhelming.

Will turned so his bare back was facing her and dug through his dresser to find a long sleeve shirt. Carly didn't need to see the long gouges in his arms just yet. He wasn't willing to bet that she'd be frightened away, but it would throw her off a little bit. He slid into a gray long sleeve shirt that had an NYU Cross Country logo on the front and turned around. "So, um," he began awkwardly. Truth was, with the drugs and alcohol, Will became a little less confident of himself when he was sober.

"I wonder what this is..."

Carly Maria Simmins
Daughter of Thaumas

Carly winced at how angry he seemed to be. "No...I wasn't hit by..a bus... That was probably just a rumor that spread or something. But I'm not dead.." Carly paushed and reached out. She placed her hand over Will's heart and looked up at him with a faint smile. "See? Completely alive. I'm really sorry that I was gone... I didn't mean to worry you.. Granted I was sedated and I didn't know where I was, but I wish I could have contacted you... Or or...let you know that I was okay." Carly felt awful. She knew what she would feel like to think Will was dead. She wouldn't be able to handle it.
Carly's cheeks flushed when she realized that her hand was still on Will's chest. She pulled it away and bit the inside of her cheek, mumbling an inaudible apology.
Carly rubbed the back of her neck, trying to figure out what their next move should be. She then realized that Will might not even be single. He might not even want to be with her anymore. "Look I'm not expecting you to have been...not with anyone for a year. But are you...um...are you with anyone now?" she asked with a slightly hopeful expression. Carly ran her fingers through her hair. She probably looked like crap. She hadn't even gone back to her cabin to fix herself up. She wondered what she must look like. Curiosity got the better of her and she forced herself to look in a mirror. Her skin was no longer lightly tanned. It was pale and sickly with dirt stains, bruises and scabbed cuts. Her hair was dirty and caked in both mud and blood. Her lips were cracked and there were heavy bags under her eyes. Her clothes were torn and stained with Hades knows what. Carly cringed and ran her hands over her face. "Zeus almighty is that what I look like?" she groaned. Carly forced herself to turn away from the mirror. Instead she focused her attention on Will.
Carly sighed and fiddled with a tear in her shirt. "It's okay if...you are with someone. I'll wish you all the happiness in the world. But.... But if you're not maybe we could... I dunno, start over?" she asked, looking up at Will with her hopeful, warm, dark blue gaze.

Last edited by Chromium on Fri Oct 12, 2012 12:53 pm; edited 2 times in total

will

Her touch was warm on his chest; just what he missed, too. Gods, how he had missed her touch and her hands. Even though she was dirty right now and covered in mud, he just thought she was still beautiful. But, Will couldn't shake his feelings of anger for some unknown reason. He couldn't tell whether he wanted to drink, get revenge, or just go back to bed. Again, he turned his gaze away from her's and began rifling through his drawers until he found a pair of drawstring sweatpants and an old smaller sweatshirt of his. "Here," Will turned around, holding the clothes out to Carly, gesturing for her to go clean off. "You haven't been clean in how long?" A faint smile touched Will's stormy gaze, a flicker of the old Will dancing across his face again.

"Carly, I'd love to start over with you, too. I really would. It's just a lot of... personal stuff is going on right now and I'm just really confused with everything," Will said, somewhat slowly. "But, no, I'm not with anyone right now and.. I'm not sure it's a good idea for me to be with anyone right now," even though I'm still clearly in love with you, he added silently. "I mean, yeah, I'd love to. Just me and you against the world," he let his thumb graze her jawbone, remembering the sweet kisses he once used to place there. "I'm not good enough for you, though, you deserve so much better." And here came the self-loathing. Will couldn't help it. He was in a bad place right now and nothing would bring him out of it.

"I wonder what this is..."

Carly Maria Simmins
Daughter of Thaumas

Carly felt as though someone had taken her hopes and shattered them, but she couldn't really blame him. She couldn't blame him for how he felt. She's disappeared and was assumed dead for a year, and now she's suddenly appearing again. Part of her hoped that everything could just return to normal, but she knew that wasn't possible. Time stood still for her while she was imprisoned. Even Camp felt like a foreign place to her. Carly took the clothes graciously and allowed a small smile to flicker over her face. "I smell better than you right now Mr. Runner," she noted, trying to surpress her smirk. Carly took the clothes and scurried off to a bathroom. She changed quickly and then walked back out to Will, holding her other clothes in her hand. "I'll just burn these..." she mumbled. It was then that Carly realized she had nothing. She had no clothes, no toiletries, no supplies...nothing. Unless by some miracle her stuff was stored somewhere, she'd have to start fresh with everything. 'That should be a blast..' she thought. Shaking her head, Carly decided that now was not the time to be worrying about material possessions.
Carly sighed and shook her head. "I do understand, Will. I've been gone for a year. It doesn't feel like it for me, it feels like just yesterday... But I know that that's not the case. I'll help you through whatever you're going through in any way that I can and I'll stand by you as a friend. But Will...Don't you dare tell me that you're not good enough for me. I love you more than anything. You were the first person I thought of as soon as I woke up, the first and only person I had to go to see. You are everything that I could ever want or need, and don't you dare think otherwise." Carly paused, realizing she was tearing up a bit. She quickly wiped her tears away from her eyes, hoping he hadn't seen them. She then playfully jabbed him in the chest with her pointer finger. "You got that, Michaels?"

will

Will grinned at the smelly joke. He probably did smell pretty bad right now considering he'd just run around the camp...literally. But, as Will listened to Carly's speech about how he shouldn't think that and how he was the first person she'd thought of when she woke up, he couldn't help but feel bad about himself... Will honestly believed that Carly could do much better than him. She didn't even know the half or it, nor would she ever. Unless he decided to tell her right now... right now would probably be a pretty good time to tell her what was going on with him, but Will was a bit skeptical on it. On one hand, Carly deserved to know everything and he didn't want to hide anything from her. It'd probably hurt him in the long run. But, on the other hand, if he didn't tell her what was up, she wouldn't get hurt. Will's head was screaming with the thoughts and his thought process was going aboslutely insane while he stayed completely silent, just staring idly at the floor. It was probably a little bit creepy but he didn't care; he was thinking.

"I don't even know where to begin, Carles," he said with a sad smile.

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