I'm pretty unsatisfied with my life.
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|Subject: I'm pretty unsatisfied with my life. Fri Jan 20, 2012 9:28 pm|| |
Let's just say, I want to be other people. It's like an insane case of jealousy gone wrong. It's always been here, or at least as far as I could remember. I've always tried to act like other people. Curl my hair, get contacts, wear colorful socks, etc. I want to change myself. The way I act, the way I speak, everything.
I've been meaner, nicer, rowdier, quieter, louder, softer, cuter, hard-core-er. Just to not be myself. I'm never satisifed with ME. I see other traits that other people have that other people like/make them popular, and I change myself to get that. I hate it. I can't stand it. Why can't I be like those people? Why not? I don't know why. I've always felt like this.
And at times I feel like nothing needs to be changed. I just let go. Most of these times are when I'm playing/creating/listening to music. Any softer classical music. Good music mostly.
And at the same time, people want to be me. THey say that. They want to be smart, and in TAG. They want hair like mine, long fingers like mine, brown eyes like mine, and the same skin tone as mine. But I find faults in myself that nobody else sees. I change them to be like other people. So to sum it up, others want to be like me, w ho wants to be like others.
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|Subject: Re: I'm pretty unsatisfied with my life. Sat Jan 21, 2012 11:19 am|| |
First of all let me tell you that noone is ugly and there is no perfect look. Iv'e done what youve done before. But instead tryed to change my personality but it just didient feel right. We all tend to feel like this once in a while in our life. But there comes a time where something will happen and it will change your views of yourself.. For me i can say being bullyed at a young age made me more independent and happy with myself It really made me a stronger person because i know in the end im the "main charector" in my life. And you said you see people want to be like you. Mainly around your age kids tend to get more aware on theres and others looks. Just keep doing you and know that your perfect how you are.
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|Subject: Re: I'm pretty unsatisfied with my life. Sat Jan 21, 2012 5:33 pm|| |
Like you, I also wish most of the time that I coyld be someone else. I want to fit in with the cool people and have people look up to ke like they do them. Hell, it got so bad that I changed half of my personality to fit in. If you hade asked me five years ago what I was into, I would've said "Rock, heavy metal and hardcore stuff". But about three years ago, I decided that I wanted to be like the other girls so I forced myself to like what they did. Dress like they did. Do what they did. It wasn't long before I had changed completely. You ask me what I like now, I would say "Rock, hip-hop, rap and Justin Bieber." By the time I realised that I was happy with who I was and people with love you whoever you are, it was too late. Dont make the mistake I did by forcing myself to grow up too fast. Be yourself and be proud that thats who you are. You were born to be you, not someone else. Hope I helped xD
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|Subject: Re: I'm pretty unsatisfied with my life. Mon Jan 23, 2012 5:07 am|| |
I've been there... pretty much my whole life. Until maybe, August, I learned to accept myself as who I am. I realized I was never going to change. Though before then, I hated myself. I hated my looks, I hated my personality, I hated the way I dressed, the way I talked, my grammar, my life. I hated all of it.
But now, I kinda realize that being another person isn't right. In a world where we are all trying to figure out who we are, pretending to be another person isn't how we're going to find that out.
Now I don't know about you, but the way I handled this was really simple. I started to appreciate what I had. I began to like the dark drown color of my eyes. My long, thick, curly brown hair was suddenly better than the straight, shiny, dirty blonde hair of the girl in "Teen Vogue". My short height was suddenly helpful for playing around tall players in basketball, and was better than being a tall, model.
I actually like being me. I like being who I am. I'm not like any other person on the planet. I'm not a celebrity, or a model, or a singer, or a stockphoto model. I'm my own person, and I like that. I appreciate it. I can go outside and not worry about how other people see me. They can see me as a weird, hyperactive nerd who enjoys role-playing, or they can see me as an intelligent blogger who fangirls, or possibly a beautiful girl who likes to read and write. I really don't care, because all that matters is my opinion of myself. I really hope you can do the same, Kendall. Because when I started to accept myself, I felt really good about it. I didn't let people bother me. It felt like a huge weight was lifted. I had one less thing to worry about. It may sound cliché, but it's true.
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