I wanna stay little forever ew

I want to slap someone because I've had a ton of applications and a list of interviews and entrance tests on my desk and I want to be in so many programs but I don't like work I started freaking out because I couldn't think of a job or a way to pay for college and I think I'll have to be a pilot if I get my private plane license or glider's license from scholarship camps at cadets I mean it pays well I guess and I like uniforms -shrugs-

I don't know what I want with my life tho I mean I procrastinate and I do crap exceptmy homework and I suck lol i just really wanna punch someone because i'm not good at anything that will make me employable ugh I just can't deal with this crap lol I'm just throwing my life away it's not like I can help sucking at everything lol I just cannot I hate homework and I can't do anything that can get me scholarships ugh

And i just wanna slap someone rn

Edit: i mean i wanna get into advanced math but asians are everywhere in vancouver and i really need that extra course and better grades in 11th and 12th grade because college looks at my grades from 11th and 12th grade and I need cadets on my application because my application aint gonna get me into harvard or something.

I don't know what to do I just wanna be good at something and love something and get a job with that kind of stuff

If you want to be in a program but you don't like working, think of all the benefits you'll get from it if you apply and stuff. :D You're not lazy, Cher. You're incredibly hard working and driven.

You can do this.

I'm a terrible procrasinator and usually end up working on homework until like midnight, but that's just because I don't need a lot of sleep. Oops.

But, anyways. If you really want to get into Advanced Math, just trust yourself and believe in yourself. Put the phone down, set the remote down, turn off the computer and force yourself to work. I know it sucks but it'll all be worth it in the end, babe. :)

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