When He Says No.........

If any of you people reading this have seen my "Hey I Just Met You" rant, this is an addition to that. If you haven't read it, I suggest you go do that now.

Anyway.

So, this guy, well.....

My best friend Erin is friends with him, and a while back, she told him I liked him. Shiz has happened. Finally, I asked him out. After all the times I lied to Erin saying I would and never did. I was so anxious all day yesterday, but it was clear he hadn't seen the message (I asked him on Facebook). So Erin was talking to him and then she told me he said no. At the time I was checking my messages real quick because my brother was borrowing my phone. This was about twenty minutes ago.

I had thought my first reaction to this would be, THANK ZEUS IT'S FINALLY OVER. Instead, I felt like crying. I had kinda started to stop liking him the other day, so I was surprised. But now I'm realizing it.

I finally asked out the guy I have liked for four months. He said no. No wonder it's hitting me hard.

I honestly should not care and my friends say I can do so much better than him, and I think I can. (He's a weirdo. I have always had a thing for weirdos.)

But I want to cry and my stomach feels empty and I don't know what to do!

Sorry for bothering,

Anna